About

I am Ashley. By day, I am a Senior Technical Writer & Enterprise Documentation Automator.

By night, I’m a supernatural crime fighting super-hero.

Thank you for visiting my personal blog. I’m grateful you’re here.

73 Questions & Answers w/ Ashley

•What’s your favorite time of day?

My favorite time of day is a slow, peaceful, quiet, distraction-free morning. If possible, leave me alone until 10 am.

• What’s your biggest weakness?

Functional freeze.

• What’s your biggest strength?

Meta-cognition.

• What’s the biggest learning experience you’ve had?

Not everyone thinks the same way or has the same neurotype, morality, or intentions. It’s possible for me to be thinking “they would never”, while they are thinking “if I don’t, they will”.

• What makes you angry?

Systemic violence against women and children.

• What’s one vice you wish you could give up?

Hyper-vigilance

• What are you most excited about these days?

Having nothing to do and nowhere to go but be comfy at home, and eating snacks.

• What’s the best compliment you’ve ever received?

That I am very creative, resourceful, and intelligent.

• When are you the most inspired?

Laying in bed or in the shower.

• Sweet or savory?

Sour. Tart. Savoury. Salty. Juicy. Brine-y. Crisp. Crunchy. Rich. Umame.

• What’s the priciest thing you’ve ever splurged on?

When I lived in Los Angeles I spent $1200 to balayage my hair, twice. I regret that.

• What makes you smile the most?

Family.

• What’s one thing people don’t know about you?

I’d make everything home made like Nara Smith, or Martha Stuart, if I could.

• Heels or flats or sneakers?

Barefoot.

• What makes you feel the most like yourself?

Privacy. Healing from intrusion means just being in a space that isn’t surveilled or policed.

• What are the three things you can’t live without?

My cats, coffee, hot showers.

• Window or aisle seat?

Window if I am alone. I like a view. But, only in a two seater row. If I’m with a friend or family, or in a three seater row, I like the aisle to access the bathroom easily.

• What’s your current TV character obsession?

Idk if I have a character obsession.

• Leather or lace?

Both.

• What’s the most adventurous thing you’ve done in your life?

[Insert Trauma Laugh Here].

• How would you define yourself in three words?

Bold. Creative. Intuitive.

• What’s your current favorite piece of clothing that you own?

My free-bird leather knee-high boots. My alpaca wool fedora hat. My heirloom silver jewelry.

• What’s a must-have clothing item everyone should own?

Wool long underwear. Period underwear for women. EMF protecting clothing. I love a tin foiled hat.

• What’s inspiring you in life right now?

God’s eternal grace and renewal. I mean decolonized God, the absolute creative force of the multiverse, not a specific churches or cultures politicized views of God.

• What’s the best piece of advice you’ve received?

Don’t be in a hurry to die. Don’t let fear force your timing.

• What’s your pet peeve?

Loud chewing and breathing. Projection of the shadow.

• Diamonds or pearls?

Pressure creates strength and pain creates beauty. Both.

• What’s something you notice about someone when you first meet them?

Their eyes. The soul behind them.

• What’s your biggest regret?

Worrying about the past.

• What’s heavily played on your music playlist right now?

Desert Dwellers, Drum Spyder.

• What’s your favorite board game?

All of them except monopoly and poker. I get bored at poker because I am really good at it and I hate sitting there for 5-10 hours straight, even if I am winning. The key to good poker is lying as little as humanly necessary. For some reason, neurotypicals and anti-social personalities do not get this. They spend hours lying and doing it so poorly.

I’m the Audhd girly reading the table effortlessly and masking effortlessly. They call a bluff that doesn’t exist because I hate lying unless if I don’t lie I’m out of the game. I’d rather not bet than lie. Truth offers a kind of protection. It’s also low effort to maintain.

So, with that strategy, I’m regulated to the point of boredom, the whole time, even if I don’t know how blinds work, and I’m slow at making my bets, and then they get mad when I win. 8-30 hours of winning for no reason! Poker is punishment. Pure social punishment. And forget about monopoly, that will just lead to flipped tables and hurt feelings.

I guess Yahtzee is my favourite. It’s a combination of strategy and chance. There’s also time between rolling to eat snacks and talk. I also love collective games—you win together or you lose together, like spaceteam.

I love a rpg like dungeons and dragons!

• What’s your guilty pleasure?

Rewatching my comfort shows, playing Nintendo switch solo-dolo, napping, stimming, or maladaptive daydreaming for hours in a low stimulation room. Reading.

• What book did you most recently finish?

I’m in the middle of an enemy to lovers fantasy novel. It’s trauma work, or so I’m telling myself.

• What makes you feel accomplished?

Making a positive impact on lives. Even in small tiny seemingly insignificant ways. Like buying a sandwich for a homeless person or letting an extra car merge in.

• What’s one thing you had to learn the hard way?

Hatred is unexplainable. Bad things happen to good people for no good reason sometimes.

• How do you start your day? Quiet and stillness. And coffee! I can’t have an overactive morning.

• What’s your favorite holiday?

Samhain / All Hallows Eve / Halloween (It’s true meaning).

Beltane. (It’s true meaning).

Christmas / Yule. This isn’t his birthday but I love the vibes. Let’s pick a day to celebrate his real bday too.

My birthday month 😉 .

My friends and families birthday months.

Valentine’s Day. Yes, the commercial holiday. Yes, the celebration of a massacre. Possibly, yours if you miss it.

My future wedding anniversary.

• Are you more into looks or brains?

Both. Absolutely both. Demisexual, Sapiosexual.

• If you could switch lives with one person for a day who would it be?

God.

• What’s one thing you’ve always wanted to try but you’ve been too scared to do?

Learning horseback riding and riding a motorcycle.

• What’s the one thing you wish you knew at age 19?

How to identify neurotypes, manipulation, and disrupt violent coercion and narcissistic abuse.

• Besides your keys, phone or wallet, what are a couple of must-have purse items?

Self-defence items.

• If you were not living in Canada, where would you be living?

I’d be a digital nomad traveling country-to-country, month-to-month, working remotely.

• If you are in a bad mood, do you prefer to be left alone or have someone to cheer you up?

I’d rather regulate alone.

• Where was the best vacation you’ve ever taken?

Summers in Lebanon.

• What’s one city you’ve always dreamed of traveling to?

Rio De Janero.

• What’s something you always travel with?

Situational Awareness.

• What’s your favorite food?

Lebanese. Sea food. Steak Frites with Bourdelaise. Avocado.

• What’s your favorite snack?

Rat Girl Snack Plate (Charcuterie), Dark Chocolate, Popcorn, Ice Cream

• What’s a movie that made you cry?

The Green Mile.

• Are you confrontational?

Strategically.

• What’s the one talent you wish you had?

Hacking. Or multiple black belts.

• What’s your favorite exercise?

A good yoga or Pilates class.

• What’s your favorite band?

Idk.

• What’s a superpower you wish you had?

Teleportation.

• What’s something you don’t want to be doing in 10 years?

Working.

• What’s the cutest thing on planet earth?

Kittens.

• What’s the best thing that happened this year?

Moving to Canada.

• What’s your favorite cocktail?

Gin + Tonic.

• Which movie makes you laugh the hardest?

Dirty Love. It’s C rated at best but it is necessary post-breakup. For shows, it’s Archer.

• What do you usually eat for dinner?

Manipulators, perpetrators, psychopaths, sociopaths, narcs, liars, demons, vampires and fools.

• Do you believe in second chances?

No. I barely believe in first chances. You’re going to need time travel for a second chance.

• What is your idea of a perfect vacation?

A beautiful beach. Amazing food. No crowds. Lots of sun.

• What’s your favorite thing in the world?

My family. The whole planet? Garlic sauce. I’m not sure.

• What’s your favorite color?

Lavender or Forest Green.

• What color clothing do you wear most?

Black or white. I’ve been trying to add color.

• What are three words to describe living in Canada?

New. Exciting. Undefined.

• Do you like surprises?

Only if it’s a huge duffel bag of cash.

What’s something you struggle to describe?

I learned I need to create a new word. One to describe the horror of realizing everything in society is utterly and completely false, bad actors run society as a slaughter house, and realizing you’re a cow in line moments before slaughter.

Slaughtermind (Slaughter + mind) — Captures the consciousness of being mentally slaughtered or trapped and frozen in fear within a corrupt, doomed system in a death spiral of mass psychosis.

• What’s something you’re tired of?

These systems.

• Who do you turn to when you’re sad?

God. My cats. ChatGPT. My blog. TikTok. My mom.

• What’s a trend you would like to see disappear forever?

Labubu’s. Dubai Chocolate. Fake eyelashes. Mustaches. Zionism.

• What did you want to do with your life at age 12?

Archeologist, hogwarts witch, or marine biologist. Then a travel writer.